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Frown lines...ugh!

For some strange reasons, I looked in the mirror and curiously stared at my face. After a few seconds, I immediately recognized the changes... my face got thinner and the image was really melancholic. To make the matter worst, I realized that I was frowning! The truth was, I wasn't frowning at all! I tried so hard not put any kind of expression on my face so I wouldn't try to exert an effort to make myself cute or whatever, just to see the changes. And I saw a line in between my brows... Oh, antagonizing! I can't believe I already have it. I am sure, you also have this kind of personal moment that you see something unacceptable in the mirror. I felt I kind of lost my youth in a span of 7 years after graduating in college. Those years have been so tough to me. My agony is not really about aesthetics, it was somewhat of the cruelty of life...(Oh, I think, I'm getting far too dramatic!)

Anyway, the wrinkles I have now, as I look back in my life are the results of:

1. too much studying :-)

2. financial problem (sometimes, or maybe most of the time :-[ )

3. COLT (Cadet Officers Leadership Training), wherein I became literally burnt under the scorching heat of the sun ( I learned a lot because of this, though. I learned to value the very little things about life that people normally ignore like drinking just a drop of water, 5 seconds under the shade, walking instead of crawling...crawling instead of rolling which was really terrible especially after eating a meal... but kidding aside, the training challenged my strength and abilities, and it gave me the opportunity to meet wonderful, benevolent co-trainees)

4. Mathematics

5. Chemistry (especially balancing the equation)

6. Physics

7. Mathematics again

8. Traffic going to Manila (during college)

9. Freaks and Sickos in the street of Metro Manila

10. Traffic on the way home

11. Thesis

12. Failed business venture

13. Tears, tears, tears...

14. Relationship problems (jealousy, incompatibility, immaturity)

15. Being too negative!

So, from now on, I promise to be more positive!!! To not devour the negative side of the problems and mishaps I had, I have and I will have. But to devour on the good it will bring.

Though I think I lost my youth, I cannot regret what I have gained, which is one of the best things a person must have...WISDOM. ( I suppose so.)

What Is Your Instinct?

A month ago, I received a hamster from my boyfriend's brother-in-law. In fact, it was not primarily given to me but to my boyfriend who seems not to have sympathy over the nearly orphaned creature. Well, maybe he has, but he just seemingly doesn't have time to feed and basically take care of little hammie. Anyway, the hamster already has a name which is KYUUBI, derived from the nine tailed fox inside the popular Japanese manga character Naruto.

To tell you honestly, I hadn't had a hamster before so I do not have any idea how to take care of Kyuubi, I don't even know its lifestyle in its natural habitat. Anyway, one time, as "he" (Kyuubi) was sleeping, I tried dropping food inside its cage. Partly awakened, he moved towards the food, gnawed a bit, left the food and went to the familiar corner where I did wonder what his real business there was. I was very much surprised to see how much food he was able to store! It was relatively more than enough for a day or so. Brilliant! I never thought of that. Yes, Kyuubi's a pet (which he's not aware of), not really in its natural environment, but he's living as if he's in his real habitat. I never thought that animals have their instinct to work during a sunny day and store food, and when rainy days come, they have something to eat. I never thought that though they are considered pets, it doesn't go to their head, they instinctively perform the task that was given to them by their Creator. How stupid I was not to think of it.

What have I learned from Kyuubi? If I am going to compare people from animals, it may sound really unfair, isn't it? But think again. are we not supposed to be ashamed that we are considered the highest beings created, but some act as if they have lesser worth than animals? Oops, sorry. I think I am being harsh. The thing is, people tend to spoil other people, giving them their whims and caprices. And others are just too contented relying on other people's help and being spoonfed. Come on!!!

Learn from Kyuubi. True enough, after I dropped the food, he stored it again on that same corner. How about you? What are you gonna do to the blessings given to you? What are you gonna do to the mind that was given to you, to the hands that were given to you? What is your instinct? Think again.

Have a sip!

I want to treat you as my friend whom I’m having coffee with, a friend who's close to me, my confidante, my partner in crime. While I look at the coffee pic I uploaded, my mouth starts to water. The coffee in my old jar is calling me. But so much for that! Cravings are there sometimes to be ignored for they are always major cause of delay, aren't they? (But wait, uh, here I go again, just wait, I'll fix a cup of y'know...)

Anyway, I started with this blog with one thing in mind. And that is to share what coffee gives me. Not addiction, my friend…but inspiration. It is as if nostalgia comes approaching when I drink coffee anytime of the day, using my favorite ceramic cup. With my feet up on the bed, my chunky pillow on my lap, my favorite note pad on top of it and my fave pen on my grip (1.0 as my preferred felt tip)….I am ready to take on my journey.

To tell you honestly, I cannot express the logical reason as to how I can get inspirations while drinking coffee. Uncanny? Well, to give you a little background of myself, I’ve been living independently since I started working in Manila and I miss my family to death that I always remember sharing little moments with them every morning, mid afternoon and late in the evening having coffee. We shared familiar laughters, at times with relatively different opinions about certain problems and concerns: school projects, bills, latest happenings on the lives of our relatives (oops, don’t get this wrong, mostly with good intention), heartbreaks…We also used to talk about the FUTURE… The future which happens to be NOW.


NOW. I am alone. They are alone, somewhere. My mom on her own, and my dad on his own. In just a snap, having coffee is no more than a typical culture that we unconsciously learned to be familiar with. Maybe while they are taking a sip of it at exactly the same time, I am also having mine. Who knows? And maybe while I think of the usual times we had, the same thing happens as they devour the aroma and the familiar bitterness and sweetness it gives. FAMILY.

As I take the last drop, I am certain that one time or another, we are going to be gathered again, the three of us. Maybe with creases on our skin, holding our favorite ceramic coffee mugs, spending the remaining days with laughter and forgiveness and thanksgiving.

Anyway, I am getting far too dramatic, am I not? J But I wish my message is clear: There maybe troubles in your lives, but you are not the only one in that plight. Find to have that inspiration, collect them one by one. No matter how big or small. Be thankful. Feel blessed for every situation of your life. You may find what you have been looking for.


For me, I found blessing… it’s FAITH.